I have just written a rather fine piece, funny and articulate of course, all about my run in with nerves over the prospect of Radiotherapy. I described how I linked that fear to the five-year little girl who was having treatment for Ringworm with what she had been told was an 'electric needle' and realised that the little girl must have been terrified and for all my antipathy to psycobabble and my belief that you should 'suck it up and get on with it' I took away with me from a counsellor at the Hospice some coping skills and decided that I would take that little girl into the room with me and keep her calm.
I just got to that point when a box came up offering me some edit or other. I pressed no and lost the whole thing.
I now only have one more session to go and I'm done with treatments...one more CT scan and one more visit to the Consultant and life can slowly get back to normal.
My fears?? Well I was so nervous I forgot all about the little girl and concentrated all my efforts on not throwing up.Ten minutes of placing my head in the right position and taking measurements and five minutes or less of the ray gun.A piece of cake. The worst thing about the whole deal was the discomfort of lying dead still on the uncomfortable metal table and the ripping off of the tape which was holding my head in place. I've had some headaches...but they could just as well be caused by the tightness of every muscle in my body when the machine starts its job. And the fact that it is every day but, as I have learned some folks have six weekly sessions and I have just had five days...I have been very lucky...so has the little five year old girl.
So far, so good, eh? Sorry to hear about you losing the piece you worked on, though. I've had that happen, and it almost brought me to tears (and damn near cost a squirrel it's life when I came this close to throwing my computer out the window on him.)
ReplyDeleteLove you, Moannie! Keep us up-to-date, and I'll keep sending the prayers!
Moannie, that was a beautifully written piece of work. I'm sure you will sail through the radiotherapy. I had 33 consecutive days of it barring the weekends. Fortunately I was able to go by myself on the bus, using my bus pass.
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Nuts in May
Dear Moannie,
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry you lost your original piece, but I am glad you rewrote and published it!
With warm hugs and best wishes,
Merisi
Upwards and onwards.......what a journey for you...take care x
ReplyDeleteThinking of you, Moannie, and wishing you and the five year old some serenity.
ReplyDeleteYou are brave and strong! Glad you are able to share.
ReplyDeleteGive both those girls a hug for me.
ReplyDeleteI have done just that before....written an entire post, then hit something I shouldn't and boom, it's disappeared into thin air! Know you are not alone!
ReplyDeleteMy granddaughter who is also 5 has been suffering with ringworm all spring and now into summer. They were all over both legs and now one on her arm. Something akin to it is on her face. They have been to the doctor repeatedly and have lathered and administered so much medicine the fungus should have held up a white flag and surrendered, but alas, she still has them. I feel so sorry for her. She itches so.
I am sooooo glad you have so little treatment left to withstand! I think of you all the time and you are STILL constantly in my prayers, as are you family.
Sometimes my posts disappear without any help from me. If it is just a little comment, I just let it slide. Glad you are near the end of this medical challenge.
ReplyDeleteI am so full of admiration for you and for your ability to cope with so many challenging experiences and fears. It's good to hear that life is near to getting back to normal for you. You are an inspirational woman, Moanie...
ReplyDeleteRah rah ree! Kick'em in the knee! Rah rah rass! Kick'em in the other knee!
ReplyDeleteGO MOANNIE! 8-)
oh it's a sick feeling when a whole post disappears. i am glad the radiotherapy has not been nearly so bad as you expected though.
ReplyDeleteglad to hear you are managing and its almost over ..
ReplyDeleteSo glad to hear that you're nearing the end of this ordeal. I so admire your strength and determination.. and humour. Hugs to you, Moannie.
ReplyDeleteSee, sometime the fear we feel in certain objects are some self-imposed only to realized at the end that there is no need to fear after all
ReplyDelete~ Ed Butowsky